Ah heh who's surprised/shocked? XP Well I thought it was time to be serious about it, and put my art skills into a bit more use, cuz what I've thrown online the past few days are just minute-pieces. x_x;
Ah well, what can I say... I've fallen inlove with my best friend, but many of you had seen that coming I guess ;;; I was too scared to say it directly, cuz I wasn't sure what the answer would be... actually, I was the coward and waited, and would still do, if I hadn't received a very long and detailed e-mail from Ally, that knocked me feet right away under me! At first cuz I thought it was going to say something exactly opposite of what it did! So my body just went numb! X3;; when it was clear to me what the e-mail was about.... I WENT EVEN MORE NUMB! xD;;; but in a good way tho' lol ^^ It seemed we'd BOTH been holding back. ; dumb love-fear!! Lol

Many ppl around me aren't giving me an easy time about this =/ for example... what's a family for? Support right? Well not mine... I started a conversation with my little sister with a smile about it, but I knew it the tone changed and she was bitching at me like crazy and telling I was living in a fantasy world oo; so the f00k what? Even if I did, I am sharing that world with the person I care the most about, so there! My big sister and her boyfriends advice to me....: "Go to parties, get drunk! plastered! Complely wasted! And lay the other girls there to the left and right" thanks for the advice oo; I... think... My mother: "....hmmm I KNOW! For your 20 year birthday, I'll buy you a hooker! No wait, I'll get you a mother + daughter thing, how about that? ^___^" UGH X(;;;; thanx MOM! Òó;;; My RL friends aren't much help either. To my surprise, my boss (you know him from a previous picture of mine ;; ) was one of the only persons giving me support iRL. One day I dunno why but he'd asked how it was going between me and her, since I once showed him that San Plush I hand-sowed for her, so he knew I cared for her. I said things were going just well, and he stood and thought a bit for a while, then looked me in the eyes and advised me to "do something about it" and smiled. o_o I was surprised. Ppl I also can count on are my online friends!!! DEMMIT thank you all! ^^ You've all believed in me, and not done anything to kill my hopes and dreams! =3 thank you!!!

Now I'm in military, and it's giving me quite good money! I'll surely be able to go visit Ally this time!!! ^_^

I love you Ally! ^0^ .....is that allriiight? ^.^;;;; *San is pelted with random object thrown by many 'angry' friends* Lol X3;; I'm j/k!!!! but I do apologize if this pic is a bit too intimate tho' o_-; [bonk] ow x.o;;; he threw his shoe?